Friday, October 2

to exclusive or not to exclusive

plums.

new boy wants exclusivity. it is worrying somewhat. i've been single for so long i'm not entirely sure how NOT to be anymore. agreeing to date exclusively feels like a commitment of magnificent proportions.


he might as well have asked for my hand in marraige. and children. and a house in the country with a dog and 2 children and a bond and life insurance and nights infront of the tv with a libido that's been shot to shit by too much carte blanche and sundays with the folks and early bedtimes and sex only in the bed...

*gulp*

i was expressing this worry while making tea for blood cookies this morning. jade was like, dude, he just asked you to be his girlfriend. you could break up with him in a week. it's not your soul.

true.

wise words.

but what if it turns out that i don't want to break up with him in a week? and then we become a 'we' when we're invited out. and the then i misplace my sense of self somewhere between his life and my life and then there's marraige. and children. and a house in the country with a dog and 2 children and a bond and life insurance and nights infront of the tv with a libido that's been shot to shit by too much carte blanche and sundays with the folks and early bedtimes and sex only in the bed...

commitment-phobe? me?

so why am i so freaked out by it? i do like him. a lot. so much so that might have to find a more suitable reference than 'new boy' soon.

met labushka for drinks on wednesday at the meat market on derry (which really should become something like, 'place where broken drunk divorced men hang out') and came to the conclusion that there's always one big problem with exclusivity: whether you mean to or not, when you start contemplating the idea, there's always that one question floating around in the back of your head - will that penis be it for the rest of my life and will it be enough?

hence the new column: size does matter. whoohoo, can't wait.

4 comments:

beaverboosh said...

Be honest with yourself and to the boy - will that penis be it for the rest of your life and will it be enough?

If the answer is yes, give the boy your best.

If the answer in maybe, give the boy your best until you have an answer.

If the answer is no, tell the boy no!

You know the answer now. You always do.

dorothy said...

dear bb
as always you are my imspiration, my yoda, my jesus, my buddha, my oracle... this is exactly what i was thinking to myself (channelling your wisdom naturally) over this very weekend and i came to a 'yes'.
yours in awe and thanks,
dot

sparky said...

on the upside, at least the penis you've found appears to be attached to someone who gives a damn about you enough to want to be exclusively yours.

look at it from his point of view. you're the only woman he wants.

and that's always nice to know.

Bordeaux said...

"will that penis be it for the rest of my life and will it be enough?"- that's why God created the three-way. Methinks it solves some of the problems of monogamy.